Yesterday

Well I finished the day with an omelet for tea, and to be 100% honest which is the whole reason for this journal journey I had 4 pieces of chocolate after tea and my partner brought home some apple strudel and cream of which I had some of that too. My biggest issue is if there is nice yummy treat type things in the pantry then I will eat them I can't seem to avoid it unless it is something that is unopened and if it will go off then I'll eat it unless it is part of a plan for a meal or something else. So I have been completely honest and as painful and as bad as it makes me look I will keep doing it, at the end of the day I am only fooling and hurting myself by hiding the truth. I'm hoping this honest approach will help me change something in my thinking, and routine. For me to change I have to look at what I am currently doing so i guess this is positive for me. I am going out with my sister in law today so hopefully that will help me being away from the snacking options in my pantry. This was planned to help me get out and change things I don't feel confident in myself to go out but with her it distracts me from the negative thinking. I heard on Oprah self confirmations the things where you talk to yourself over and over and over so I think I will try that for myself as well. I'm not sure where to start but when I work out what my first one is I will post it here. I intend on walking when my partner gets home and takes over the children so it will be run 2 lamp posts walk 2 lamp posts i aim for and it will be down quiet streets so I can't convince myself of what other people are thinking when they drive past. I'm not sure why other people matter so much in my thinking but they seem too.